THROW-BACK THURSDAY: AT MAMA'S GRAVE WITH MY TRIBE, NOVEMBER 1985

L-R: Cameron Hubbe, Maggie Jochild, Sarah Hubbe, Holly Wilder, at Rose Hill Cemetery in Denton, Texas

In November 1985 I drove across country from SF to Texas and back with my then-lover, her sister, and my best friend. We visited places where I had lived, my lover's grandparents had lived, a gay male college friend in Phoenix, and eventually my mother's grave. I became swamped by memories and ossified painful emotion, and was horrible to be around by the end of the journey. A long expedition which raked open a lot more than it resolved.

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THROW-BACK THURSDAY: 5 AUGUST 1985, DOLORES PARK, SF

Throw-Back Thursday: Me and my best friend Holly at a birthday picnic for me, 5 August 1985, in Dolores Park, SF. No, we are not kissing. Photo taken by my lover at the time.

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LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 17 JUNE 2014

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts. There are some really creative folks out there.

 

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THROWBACK THURSDAY: TODDLERHOOD IN KOLKATA, 1957-58

This is me playing domestic in our big living room in Kolkata, India. It's so early I haven't gotten dressed yet. 

I don't remember the broom or matching mop. The toys I really longed for were the boy's things given to my older brother: a Carroms game, erector set, cap guns. Even more, I longed for thick black socks instead of the wispy white ones I had to wear, and sturdy shorts and T-shirts instead of petticoats and sunsuits. I want to move without limitation and no worries about staining or tearing my attire.

 I wanted boys' freedom, not the sex itself -- which even then I was smart enough to know had NOTHING to do with the rules being handed out.

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LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP 28 MAY 2014

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts. There are some really creative folks out there.

 

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THROW-BACK THURSDAY: ADOLESCENCE OF A SEXUAL ABUSE SURVIVOR

Throw-Back Thursday: Six photos from age 12 to age 18.

In the first of these, at age 12 [1967, 7th grade, Dilley], my molestation had stopped but could recur at any point. I took steps that autumn to remove myself from his reach by siding with my father against my mother and demanding we take a job offer in Brazil. I was still wondering if I could have gotten pregnant. The dress I am wearing here represents a class shame I simply cannot write about.

The next one [9th grade, 1969], after our return from Brasil, was in Stoneburg where I experienced my first real freedom.

The third, at age 15 [10th grade, 1970, Stoneburg -- I made the dress I'm wearing], was when I was falling in love for the first time with a girl.

The fourth [age 16, junior year, 1971, Stoneburg] was after I'd started being mistreated by that first love (of course whom I chose turned out to be a sexual predator of children -- not long after this, she later raped my little brother).

In the fifth one [age 17, senior year, 1972, Stoneburg], I had just become lovers with someone new, five years my elder and very controlling.

In the sixth, my second year of college [1974, age 19, Denton], I was still emerging from a nervous breakdown brought on by poverty, shame, and being cheated on by my second lover with my first. Feminism was just arriving in my personal world to help me make sense of it all.

 These are hard memories and tough years. Recovery was a long way off and 2000 miles away.

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LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 20 MAY 2014

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts. There are some really creative folks out there. {NOTE: Final image is arachno-blatant.}

 

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